How far have you walked….

•February 14, 2014 • Leave a Comment


Happy Kitten

•February 13, 2014 • Leave a Comment

Who says the guy has to ask? I decided that I didn’t want to wait around. So I it was my decision to ask a good friend of mine to be my valentine tomorrow. He has been around for several years, and is someone that I truly respect and value.

He decided to accept though I don’t understand why he was shocked…

Acceptance and letting go

•February 13, 2014 • Leave a Comment

You will never find peace until you learn to finally let go of the hatred and hurt that lives in your heart. Life is far too short to be spent in nursing bitterness and registering wrongs. Grudges are for those who insist that they are owed something; forgiveness, on the other hand, is for those who are confident enough to stand on their own two legs and move on.

In order to move on, you must know why you felt the way you did, and why you no longer need to feel that way. It’s about accepting the past, letting it be, and pushing your spirit forward with good intentions. Nothing empowers your ability to heal and grow as much as your love and forgiveness

Singles awareness day

•February 13, 2014 • Leave a Comment

Tomorrow is Valentines day… or Singles awareness day. It was barely over a week ago that I was so excited about this day coming. I was suppose to spend it with my Dominant. We had all kind of happy fun times planned… but he has released me for reasons that he has kept to himself.

So unless someone decides to ask me to be their Valentine I will be alone once again. It won’t be the first… and sadly I wonder if it won’ t be the last. Last year… my world shattered on this day. It is the day that Nick told me that he no longer wanted me… that he wanted me to go home.

I have spent a great deal of time in prayer and meditation hoping that I would not be alone tomorrow… but it looks as if that is exactly how I will be spending it.

A Butterfly Among Angels

•February 10, 2014 • Leave a Comment

Am I a moth among angels?
Dazzled by their perfection
Destroyed by their beauty
Hated among their leagues
Imprisoned by their flight.
They neither leave me
Nor mock me
Yet they themselves crush me
With the unyielding weight
Of the knowledge
That my wings will never take me
To their heaven.
I’d envy them did I not know
My jealousy would only make them more beautiful
Within my green eyes.
I flap my grey wings
Fighting the winds
A single flap of their wings create
And wonder ‘Why?
Why have I been cursed
To reach for God alongside his angels
And know only I
Among this legion, will never reach.
Another stroke of their angelic wings
A gust rips past
My weak wings are easily clipped
My fighting finally ends,
And as I fall to Hell
I can only hope to be reborn,
Not as an angel
For that is too much to hope for ,
But, maybe… simply
A butterfly.

Beautiful poem I found

•January 20, 2014 • Leave a Comment

If I was to walk away from you
Would you ask for me to stay
Would you hold me close for hours
Till the night faded into day

Would you think about me late at night
Or in the morning when you awake
Would you show me just how much you care Would you put everything at stake

Would you make me smile when times are tough
When I’m lost would you take my hand
Would you be strong enough to hold me up
Through the times when I couldn’t stand

These are things that I would do
To try to show you how I feel
The question that now haunts my dreams Is this fantasy, or is it real


•December 13, 2013 • Leave a Comment

So I told mom that I was going to go out for a few hours and play pool, and as usual she had a fit. I didn’t say I would be out till 2 am I just said a few hours more then likely I will be back in the house by 11 pm, but she doesn’t care. I am so happy that I don’t have to wait that much longer before I can move out.